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Last Apt Rapt Presence

An apt present empowers
as an unanticipated
unearned warning
enlightens apt
rapt presence,

Delighted with discovering,
perhaps rediscovering?
what I would never have been wise enough
to look up for
nor hunt down.

Timing is everywhere,
every when
every what
every why
every how;
and merely some thing
somehow?

Nature trained
sensory engrained
spirit brained

Transforming change in appearance
forms strange
grotesquely competitive
transmogrified monocultures

Transubstantiating change of inside substance
elements as invisible as unpresented polyculturing presents
not yet
not still
not actively accessible to sensory reception,

Unformed except for past internal images
reimagined,
rememories
not yet memed

By secularizing sacred social senses
nonsenses
unsenses
resenses
presensing

Apt presents empower
as unlearned warnings enlighten
coincidentally apt
presence enrapt.

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She Speaks in Circling Lengths

He said,

Your faith community’s secularizing problem
is too much dogmatically intolerant rigidity.
You reek of green political correctness.

She replied, indefinitely concluding,

You are undoubtedly right,
our sacred opportunity
too slowly grows win/win principles
of nature/spirit indigenous integrity

We speak of blue empowerment
through green cooperative enlightenment,

Yet shun the rightwing dominant
red patriarchs
we only find useful
in regenerative beds

For flowers
and vegetables,
ornamentals
and edibles,
polyculturally designed
to follow multicultural polypaths
to notice transubstantiating co-relationships
necessarily precede healthy
rebirth wealth

Not only rising and falling daily
weekly
monthly
seasonal life

But also noticing cycles
and spirals
daily circles of rising to enlightenment
from the same dream bed
where we, in previous dark of nightfall,
fell unfree freely into disempowering
ecosytemic ego’s leftbrain dominant
verbalizing either/or thoughts
and categorical labels
prickly restricting
dark box constricting
deducting power
reducing light
from free win/win green cooperative,
win/lose red competitive,
integrity of full-circle thought
feelings

Looking forward
as dawn greets greying skies
this day
and night
yet another full and emptying circle
re-imagining our win/lose dogmatic indoctrinations
into win/win indigenously organic freedoms
of integrity’s vast warm green
cooperatively blue
recycling potential

To smell and taste
of refreshing cooperative
healthy political empowerment
through economically co-invested
green indigenously new/old
transubstantiating communion circles
of health/wealth thriving
enlightenment.

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Integrity’s NonScarcity

I can experience integrity of time
and dissonance of not enough
but cannot find
define
refine a line
in-between
anxiety and anticipation

win-eg ohealthy center
to win-ecosystem wealthy advocating
divesting of a punishing win/lose shadow
anthro-supremacist leftbrain dominant world
view

Feeling committed to change
strategies restoring peace
on
and in,
above
and beyond awesome
and wondrous sacred
divinely secularized humane
EarthJustice

Could never become regenerative
through degenerative win/lose
ZeroSum scarcity
predicts dissonance about punishment

AND
Peace will never spontaneously regenerate
when diminishing multicultural esteem value
for win/win NonZero sums
of integrity’s Truth means BeautyTwo
restoring climates of warm felt justice

Through integral,
permacultural,
polycultural
global climate health Justice
restoring inside
outside Peace
of sufficiency
simplicity
sustainability
surrounded by EarthDay seas
of gratitude

Win/Win trusting attitudes
of ecosystemic deep
and emergent wide experience
through multi-sensory
multi-generational
poly-regenerational reflection
ego-inspired
and eco-witnessed

BiCameral Left with Right co-operative
co-reflection identity confluence,
curious confidence,

Integrity’s potential
slow-steeped tea
of sufficiency
robust simplicity
solidarity through win/win
elegant engagement

Restoring EarthPeace
through multiculturally appreciative Justice
integrating sustainable EarthView dialogue

AND
not diving so deeply
in disastrously dissonant
deductive dominant
EarthScarcity debate.

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Sympathy Isn’t Quite Empathy

To affirm and promote acceptance
of one another
and all together one
is to also affirm and promote
growing capacity for active empathy,
not settling for passive,
sometimes also ToughLove aggressive,
sympathy

The best possible outcome
being mere liberating tolerance–
which is still a big evolutionary step up
from conservative survivalist
intolerance,

Which anyone
who is in any way
not BusinessAsUsual
LeftBrain dominant
StraightWhite patriarchal
can tell you,
at probable great anecdotal length
personal
political
economic
cultural
education sadly replete
with unsystemic intolerance
of indigenously sacred
Wisdom

That win/lose passive tolerance
is NOT active
democratically healthy
wealthy multicultural acceptance,
an immensely positive moral
legal
spiritual
natural polycultural
deep immersion value

Omnipotently integral potential knowledge
of why eco-political empowerment
and enlightening wisdom
are more than mere personal win/lose tolerance

LeftBrain dominantly verbalized
capitalized
fathered YangPower
against EarthMothering YintegraLight

Of HerStoric wise-felt feeling
knowledge
co-investing in empathic Wisdom

To affirm and promote acceptance
of one another
and all together one.

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Healing Unusually Cruel Justice

Everything
and everyone
we have ever legitimately loved,
we will lose.

Mentally embracing
facing this problem
of biological mortality
is half of our potential
multigenerationally licit grace.

The other half,
more redemptively front
and ego/eco-centering,

Everything
and everyone we licitly hate
and have ever feared,
we may never legitimately choose
to lose.

Embracing these opportunities
to let go of misunderstandings,
neglect,
and abuse,
cowardice,
and avarice,
avoidance
and active dissociation,
failures of chronic irresolution
and climatic dissonance,

Lack
Of legitimate appreciation
and licit healing support,
Of legitimate wellbeing acceptance
rather than merely licit tolerance,

These are a legitimate moral problem
of immortally illicit injustice,
bad eco-political systemic karma.

Letting go of hate
is a new win/win growth opportunity.

Grabbing onto love
is an old growth risk
of inevitable ego-autonomous
deeply personal loss.

Legitimate loss
for those relentlessly engaged
in not counting these self-identified costs
against compassion’s globally timeless benefits
is also illicit win/lose monocultural suffering
for a win/win multicultural
nonviolent trans-communicator
for restorative EarthPeace
and LicitHealth
LegitimateWealth
Eco/Theo-Justice.

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Bread Is From EarthManna For Heaven

Deep warm-blooded
Dark brown
Multigrain Manna is from Heaven.

Sometimes,
OK, most times,
I’m not actively building a cooperatively co-invested
residential
and environmental health system,
or even a local family-safe
polyculturally resilient community

Because I am too capitalistically infested
with buying and selling
highest and best autonomously owned
unreal estates for developing future asset benefits
to my autonomous anthro-egoself

I become distracted by autocratic
automatic-acquiring capital,
by competitive win/lose assumptions,
that empowering long-term
climate in/exformation
sensory infrastructural
co-invested health priorities
are merely monocultural
patriarchally reasonable
BusinessAsUsual normative
extractions into my personal kingdom
potential Paradise

Even while watching
and hearing
and tasting
and smelling
and feeling
and touching short-term capital investment wealth
non-returns
disconnections
retributively, rather than co-redemptively,
meeting StraightWhite patriarchally privileged
over-powerment

LeftBrain dominant
win/lose realistic
ZeroSum competitive economic
for white privileged corporate survivalist
anti-ecological
presumptively extractive
white privileged outcomes
long-time not resonant/resilient thrivalist.

Messages that we all care about community safety
and respect family-protective health care priorities
make no co-operating GoldenRule
counter-historical
military-industrialized sense

While investing in LeftHand interdependent co-relationships
in between health equals wealth
Win/Win extended feminist family systemic side

While simultaneously disinvesting with RightMightHand
autonomously dissociating
anthroprivileged wealth-building
capital-patriarchal predatively dominant
dogmatic ego-uberness
over nonelite natural secularized real Estates,
monopolistic autocratic States of Mind
verbally conscious
and nonverbally felt loss of win/win
co-investment options

We are leftbrain more or less aligned
against long-term resilient win/win family climate health
and safety,
cooperative ownership and management power
and enlightened rational environmental health

Against cooperative self/other development
GoldenRule resonant
and resilient networks
for compassionate community communication
democratic contractual consensual redevelopment

Against health/wealth transactional designs
for nonviolent ecotherapeutic green peace
restoring healthy justice
residential systems
matriarchal networks
rational natural
felt also indigenously spiritual
co-investing communion estates

Way more safe
and sacredly significant
multi-sensory experience satisfying
than merely secularized
industrialized
corporatized
little ticky-tacky boxes
monotheistically monetized
real verbally static
silent ZeroSum Win/Lose assumptions

Quick
cheap profit margins
irrelevant
and actively resistant
to long-term sacred EarthCreature health
is also secular nutritious communal wealth
enlightened cooperative governance

Manna from PolyCultural Heaven
is also Bread
from and for
higher and lower
wider and deeper
outside and inside
RealHabitat EarthEstates

Reminding me
I can’t buy Holy Communion States,
we can only build them
to gather
restoring EarthJustice.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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Today Is Different

Today is assiduously
religiously different,
as I review our local RiverEast News.

Every week
Mike Thompson writes a solid Editorial
in a compelling voice.
I expect to only add
my hearty sacred
happy secular “Amen!”

Our nearly fearless Editor and Chief
calls for political “ACCOUNTABILITY!”
like so many others on bipolar Left through Right,

And those still hanging on
with battered nails
to quickly fading dipolar
in-between HAVE-NOT
anthrocultured primacy race
and HAVE
cash class
co-empathic consciousness
that renters and owners need each other
like borrowers and banks
yet feel as competitively apart
as victims and predators,
droning prey and patriarchal colonizers

Insurrectionists,
nihilistic HAVE-NOT anarchists
military industrialized
invade our sacred capitalistic space,
so now, I read,
“there needs to be
accountability.”

I do not disagree, BUT…
AND would you not agree
our shared future will be healthier,
and co-investing wealthier,
if predators claim their own responsibility
for exceeding civil and civic
democratically cooperative authority
through more slow-grown discernments

Rather than passionate placards
preferring hot
and sometimes armed
debate
drama
extraction
capture
imprisonment
enslavement
debacle
bacchanalia,
angry selfie Theater

Fueled by manufactured Bud
more than ancient cannabis buds.

Our angry Editor
lashes nationalistic Republicans out of town,
especially the transcendently unEarthly
Vice President Pence,
praying for “healing” and “unity,”
and not even close enough
for government work
invoking a sacred benediction
through end of term ACCOUNTABILITY!
of blind justice,
thus retributively more equitable
punishing non-mercy
served against irresponsible
angry words
and violently desecrating actions.

Interesting,
I also hear President Biden
passionately praying for “healing” and “unity”
Unity
Unity,
and more silent about punishing justice
held up to public scrutiny
of LeftBrain dominant, Accountability–
not so much RightBrain felt prominent,
CoResponsibility.

Retributive justice of Accountability
is for punishing
the autonomously guilty.

Restorative justice of CoResponsive
Responsibility
is for healing,
and resiliently lasting,
peaceful,
healthy interdependent unity

By divesting of autonomously unEarth-responsive
economic anthrocentric capital gains
and politically privileged responsibility
of patriarchal
capitalistic
military-industrialized
corporate empowered monoculturing supremacy,
anthro-irresponsible intent.

Why is it,
Mr. Editor,
I wonder wander
as I moondrift flow along,

Why is it more important
or realistic
or essential to punish
before moving on to heal:
to set apart and imprison,
to judge
and shame and blame,
before reconsidering unity
through faithful
multicultural dialogue?

This military-first preference
seems to reflect Chief RedCommander
inciting rhetoric
echoing Hitler’s strengths
of hate and violence
and deadening threat
of powerful justice
developing full-throttle
exclusively through our patriotic
overpowering position
of autocratic STRENGTH!

To hold the Alien EcOther
revengefully Accountable.

Actually,
as I dimly recall
my own unfortunate experiences with punishment
and healing warmth restoring healthier wealth
of personal political empowering responsibility,
nonviolent communication
includes inviting proactive practice
of compassionate therapy
through restorative justice,
pursuing multicultural pace
of EarthPeace,

More polytheistically matriarchal
than monoculturally
LeftBrain soulless solely Accountable
for missing opposite experience opportunities
more typically therapeutic
and conveniently,
even co-responsibly,
CoOperative Truths
building healthy democratic Trust.

I’m thinking I learn more powerfully
not from Strength, but uncapitalized weakness,
fluidity,
both/and nuance,
empowering eco-political responsibility
and disempowering ego-individual accountability,
publicized felony revenge
and misdemeanor scorn

Distract from wider experience
deeper Light
by exploring my own disconnected woundedness
evolving lonely feelings of win/lose mortal brokenness

Past failures in responsive civil commitment
to cooperatively hold
and cherish democratic sacred space
at home,
reading the weekly paper,
and WholeEarth abroad,

Rather than my boldest debates
to strongly compete in high risk
armed and violent communication confrontations,

Alarming punitive messages
using win/lose weapons of strong obfuscation,
which are irresponsible,
demanding that EcOthers be held apartheid Accountable
for lack of healthy healing,
cooperative unity,
co-governing skills for building
resiliently healing
trust-struggling
ongoing inclusive dialogue
relationships,

Religiously essential
to any healthy democratic
natural and/or spiritual experience,
constitutional
and/or familial,
anthro-centric
and/or eco-systemic health restoring,
globally political
and/or personal cooperative economics
of ecofeminist
green newLeft/ancientRight deal
co-responsible
resilient
and polypathically resonant
Ego/Earth co-investment

In a different
universally healing
unitarian tomorrow.

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What’s In My Soup?

An important political
and economic issue,
at least for me:

What do I nurture?
What do we invest
and reinvest in?

If this Taoist “jaw” of Great TippingPoint Green Transition
toward Earth’s vast climate healthy wealth
must nurture LeftBrain Yang dominant red
Team competitions with,
and not against,
nationalism’s StraightWhiteMale violent privilege,
then how do EarthResidents also,
and more RightBrain primordially,
nurture Earth’s dipolar co-arising recreation?

Do I even try to nurture natural spirit investments,
conscientious re-ligion,
re-connections of
and for
cooperative secular/sacred reconciliations,
natural/spiritual remunerations,
yang/yin bilaterally restoring
Earth’s vast regenerative,
nonviolently communal,
ego/eco-NonZero balancing emergent Zone
of Heaven/Earth revolving

Co-empathic,
co-gravitating,
co-arising dipolar bicameral communication,
polypathic health/wealth developing systems
for nurturing RightBrain mercy
with LeftBrain restorative justice,
cooperative solidarity
with pro-active hope

That our most transcendent ego-liberal freedoms
remain systemically centered
for nurturing Earth’s Great Green Transitional interdependence

Of species,
guilds,
tribes,
forests,
meadows,
of living spirit/nature
ego/ecosystems,

Articulating,
expressing,
reincarnating,
nonviolently communicating
revisions to win/win ParadiseLost
through win/lose LeftBrain dominant

Woundedness,
separation,
deduction,
division,
reduction,
repression,
suppression,
depression

More afraid of lose/lose nihilistic
degenerative futures

Than angry about loss of
WinHealthy Yang Capital CoInvestments
to WinWealthy Yintegrity
of Earth’s Great Reverse
ReTransitional 20/20 AntiPandemic Promise

Eco-nomial-logically ego-renatured
conscientiously re-ligioning
Poli-Nomial-Culturally eco-nurtured

As HeavenLight’s wealthiest EgoPromise
re-nurtures
EarthPower’s healthiest Pleasure.

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UnShelved EarthPassions

If I were to step into
and onto
and around
and through,
in and out of WholeEarth
as one ecosystemic
interdependent
unitarian
integral
holistic
holy nature-spirited ZeroZone

Of ego-sheltering identity,
embodiment,
multiculturally emergent incarnation,
polycultural individuation process,

For just one timeless polypathic moment,
I might hear
and feel RightWing religiously-held bad faith,
envy,
chronic win/lose patriarchal anxiety,
straight white male privileged anger,
ego-systemic xenophobic fear

As a ZeroZone therapeutic problem
neglecting win/win polypathic,
polycultural virtues

Of also experiencing LeftWing scientifically-held good faith,
appreciation,
critical joy climaxing win/win matriarchal anticipation,
non-binary multicultural feminist democratic compassion,
ecosystemically polytheistic,
polypathic,
polyphonic,
polyvagal neurological win/win,

Unsheltered,
transparent,
vulnerable,
eternally curious
compassionate Fruits of EarthSpirit communication,

Internally ego-centered
when also timelessly EarthImpassioned

In our personal
and interpersonal
and transpersonal experiential learning ways,

RightWing,
LeftBrain,
Either/Or,
fundamental capitalistic deductive Win/Lose
sometimes overpoweringly violent Red Dominance

Is also premature green
Left/Right bicameral,
double-binary,
balancing
ecopolitical win/win promise
through compassionate Earth-systemic communication

Of curiously courageous Light/Power,
Heaven/Earth,
Scientific/Religious,
ego/eco-revolutionary win/win passions
unsheltered

CoEnlightening
Ego/Eco-empowering
if we were to step in and out
of WholeEarth ecosystemic
integral nature-1/spirit-0 Zone
of ego/eco-cooperatively unsheltered identity,
polypathic co-investment process

Interdependently held
for just one timeless eco-political moment,

We might hear and speak,
experience and know
left and right cooperative,
deductive thought and inductively felt bicameral
health and safety,
compassionate
EarthPeace communication.

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