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Dark

Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories

Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives

Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!

Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.

My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition

Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair

Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress

All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide

Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah

Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.

My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories

Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…

Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated

Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang

AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions

Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares

Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice

Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again

BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity

Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.

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Silent Conspiracy

My car-ride silence
is not judging you;
maybe me,
but certainly
and more generously
unconditionally not angry
or shaming
or blaming
you for unpardonable sins
against sainted me.

With you in a powerless passenger seat
and me in a self-punishing driver’s
need to alone defeat
our unshared lonely demons
darkly frightened and angry
terrified trauma
repeat
repeat
repeat

Frozen in this mystical dark
threatening night
mile after agonizing
coldly silent mile.

Self judgment
for addictions to bright pleasure
to glaring peace
to sacred wombs
remembering comfort and joy;
and warmly quiet compassion
listening, hopefully,
for what you can not say
gratefully yet today

Until you are ready
to speak your overflowing feelings,
positive
and negative,
manic
and depressive,
conflicted in-between
comically up
and tragically down,
cooperatively spiritual
and competitively natural,
warm mind wants
and searing body needs

Your trauma narrative
and our therapeutic hopes
and win/win dreams
for terrifying partnered glory.

My silence
is not cold,
not condemning,
but warmly curious

To hear,
and thereby hope to help heal
less silent
more shared sided by side
struggles

Together co-arising
mostly compassionate wars
against past and present unhealthy addictions
passions

Empowerments
and disempowerments,
unconditionally warm
and sacred enlightenments
and calculating cold silent
and severing secular endarkenments,
retributive competitions
and restorative cooperations

Playing quiet conspiracy games
of who can hold his voice longest
and most sadly,
and how we warmly hold
our compassion choice
more gladly

For healthier peace
and wealthier best
Tragic Comedy Drama
in a daily soap opera
series

Of critical
trauma risks
and therapeutic opportunities
throughout this long bad day

Driving not only
lonely in a cold conspiracy
of silence;
more of a warm compassion context
for restoring
and restorying
nonverbal heart communion

Reweaving what you once said
or thought
or hoped
or feared
that time heals all wounds

Except incapacity to remember
how you got them
and how much they cost
us.

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Cooperative Desires

My dubiously protagonist Self
outgrows toward a co-invested
cooperative
co-governing center

A core UnWhite House communication center
Tao training for sacred positive
and trauma negation memories

Into ecologically
and economically
Right whole open
PanenTheistic Intelligence

Amping up
co-relational win/win choices
through unconditional regard
of panentheistic
inside/outside co-discernment
voiced choices

Ego secularized
by LeftHemisphere
health and safety cooperative
evolving old tired competitive
revolutionary predative theories

Not mentioning
survive together to thrive
communal co-empathic
win/win imaginations
empowering enlightened co-governance
animating histories

My intimately win/win highest and best
co-redemption narratives
feel like a sacred housed cooperative
trauma-free awareness
and copassionate intent
to live together EarthTribe curiously,
yet confidently,
win/win committed
sacredly together

On, but not overpowering,
my cusp of traumatic anxiety triggers
and co-therapeutic anticipated compassions
together deepending mutually co-invested
ownership and co-therapeutic
natural health and spiritual safety
intent

Calls my sacred housing cooperative images
merging projects for
and from
cooperative nondogmatic experiences
comforted by food and energy
nurturing resilience

Appreciating river-front environmental green
and clean
co-relational preservation
not at all bully mean

Historical-multicultural
Right-sacred/Left-secularizing
co-discernment spirit-mind/nature-body skills
of cooperative
co-governing communications

For green cooperative resilience
reproducing inside imaged
EarthPeace therapeutic homes
and panentheistic gardens
in/out-sided
wellness-rounded
competing mortal space
throughout immortal time
for EarthTribe’s Here/Now resonance.

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Aunt Eartha’s Winter Interview

What are your most winterish
critical trauma events
in these most recent
three millennia?

Why
just my traumas,
and not their corresponsive
ecotherapies
for restoring EarthJustice?

Please go on
and on
questioning my questions
seemingly without end,
like an arctic wind-blown
starless night
in eternally restless January.

As you say,
and, but for this grand analogy,
you would pay dearly
for your unsprung youth,

Back in pre-colonial daze
of sacred tribal glad,
mostly naked clad,
reunions,
Fall harvests produced fertile gratitude,
more of a positive
win/win attitude.

In those last warm and golden times
of nature nighttime naivete
some Governor,
a Wise Elder, perhaps

No matter how Patriarchal,
would deep dream think
to set defenses against
each sacred Other

Yet pantheistically inclusive Mother Earth
could not feel ripe
or right, apart

Summer fullness
and winter dormant absence
fail to positively correlate
Earth’s spirited spring minds
and physical womb-falling bodies
with metaphysical,
sacred bipartisan,
deeply thoughtful
yet hibernating
frustrated feelings
failing to confluently
and competently understand

Communicating
and excommunicating
across seasons
and present seas
of sacred vulnerable immigration
integration
creolization,
followed by thoughtfully transparent
slow-grown emigrant sacred status
rooted in wisdom
and freedom to,
not freedom from
and some other kindless
kingdom

Immigrating/Emigrating EarthTribes
exhaling summer’s sway
away
and migrating winter’s WombDream play
back in to sacred circling
and recycling stay.

Thanks for that,
Aunt Eartha.
Sounds like less of a summery answer
and more of a deep wintering question.

Yes, my dear,
and what does winter taste
and look
and feel like?

Restoring Earth’s
not-quite-so-everlasting
seemingly endless
cold white privilege,

Thawing into
more spring/fall balance,
sacred green/blue global
hibernating
matriarchal,
yet apparently dormant,
ecologists.

Sorry, Aunt Eartha,
drifting off,
wandering in winter wonder

EcoTherapy, once around again,
regenerating global
GoldenPlaying Peace

Within this silent wintered star’s
bright prolific night.

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Narcissists Unanimous

I might feel grand
aspiring to omnipotent
omniscience

Whereupon omnipresence
might feel less necessary,
or even possible,
or desirable

In a secularized
reduced
dissociated apartheid,
sacred Us v sinful Them

An omnipotently inflammatory place
for every Other individual thing
and all Other routine
and orthodox Things,

Omnipresent capital events
in anonymously rational
linear
fundamentally dualistic frames

Either sacred Me
or secularized You
will win our antagonistic win/lose
evolving worldview news

Preferably reduced from
supremely anthro-privileged
down deep into
my ego’s highest omnipotent potential
best win/win omniscience sacredly encircled
to ubiquitously favor
least global cost
and most localized efficient
ego/eco healthcare
resonant balance

In a way not omnipotently possible
nor omnipresently invited
nor yet omnisciently compassioned

If only we were more adept
at losing win/lose
and playing win/win
Gods and Goddesses,
OmniPresent Icons
and OmniPotent Idols

Inviting sacred Gaian EcoFeminist spaces,
omnisciently omnipotent places,
unconditionally disregarding
LeftBrain Iconic Narks
Phallic Idols,
profit prophets
for Narcissists Unanimous.

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TRANSubstantiating Inductions

Don’t want to be reductionist
obeying only secularized rules

Would prefer to grow more
sacred inductionist
rediscovering golden win/win tools

For imagining
and re-membering
why win/win ancient relationships,
like space and time,
humane and divine
here and there
circle and square
pole and hole
purpose and goal

Feel more sacred
than win/lose dueling competitions
seem routinely dissonant

Despite StraightWhite Paternalistically Capitalist
secular indoctrination
disrespecting ecofeminist experiences
of resonantly resilient
compassionate relationship
elationships

Guiding sacred inductive curiosity
to restore eternal health and safety
sacred communions
within each reiterative communication
string through holonic communities
of resonantly cooperative freedoms
uniting wealth resilient experience

Lavishly conserving
future regenerators’ trauma-healing
romantic re-memories
sacredly dramatic
peak and peaceful co-elationships

Replacing immigration threats
by Other colonizers
Restoring emigration strengths
with cooperative creolizers.

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Sinning Saints Once More

When I was in seminary
my spiritual director advised me to notice,
as had he,
that there are two kinds of:

Clergy

Those who understand their calling
as to coldly forgive
and heatedly challenge
all bedeviled sinners

And those who feel called to mentor
gods and goddesses
and all transgender images in-between
to warmly engage
and repeatedly comfort
all divinely endowed
panentheistic
Holy Spirited saints.

Lay Leaders

Those who live for a vacation
from telling Others why they must not do
whatever trauma-afflicted compulsion
we might feel addictively drawn toward

And those whose felt sacred vocation
is to communicate compassionately with Others
to therapeutically understand
what we would most love to be
and become
co-invested in ego-health
and ecosystemic-wealth
re-associatively together

Unconditionally regarding
both categories of Clergy
and Ego/EcoTherapeutic Lay Leaders
and All PolyCultural EarthTribal Creatures,
verbally dominant
and nonverbally
co-passionately prominent

Comforting the nonverbally afflicted
more than verbally afflicting
the too win/lose oppressed
survivalist
StraightWhiteCorporateMale
Business As Usual
RightWing Evangelical
anti-ecofeminist gospel truth
is Holy Spirit anathema
comfortable
with cognitive/affective chronic
bicameral dissonance.

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Pequot River Land Trust

Once,
or twice,
maybe thrice,
surely not
not fractal

A clan of crazy ecofeminist
conspired with an 88 unit residential castle
in a historically converted
colonial-red brick bad building

With a sometimes soggy south wall school,
but not a pool

With a toxic Brownfield
to the South
disempowered
and a healthy playfield
to the North
enlightened

Overlooking Connecticut’s Pequot River,
We plotted
and mystically strategized
in sibilant circles
of reinvention

Without pretention
And also, sometimes,
without hearing much retention
of what silent Others
might, more paternalistically
have disinterestedly said
about corporate kleptocracy
of our home planet Earth

Distracted by paternalistic
colonizing over-shoot
into capital hoarding
closed and toxic dgenerating
anthrosupremacist extraction systems
of economic and politically chauvenistic
apartheid sponsored disintegrating health care
giving is also cooperative receiving
win/win resiliently therapeutic systems.

Our panentheistic worship patterns
are nuanced sacred eco-logia
subtle
avoiding dogmatically fundamental
unwoke and unwelcome absence
of over-investing
in disempowering communal Yinside DoorMats,

Externally oppressed
by prickly but ineffective predators
wiping their StraightWhite Privilege
to bow to Mammon’s narcassistic
monotheistic
bedeviling superpowers

For, eventually,
enlightening LeftBrain verbalized prejudices
against sacred RightBrrain muted
yet co-empathic trust for feelings

Of both blue sky
and green forests
co-investing with Mother’s re-membered
communal ecofeminist transporters
and nonviolently communicating
great and small transitioning
transubstantiations

Left and Right bilateral
human health balanced brilliance
relies on MotherEarth’s sacred wealth
ecoministerial resilience
of indigenously wise
ecotherapists
sharing and caring
for our tilling tools

EcoLogians
strategizing in Earth patterns
breathing in resilient eco-systems
of light
to breathe out ego-recentering networks
of win/win co-invested power

CoMediation thriving yet again
until EarthMother’s last breath rasp
echoes Her first
majestically fluid EarthTribal gasp

Win/Win Whole Open Systemic
left-ego/right-eco
in/out-side bipartisan health values

Collectively lost
momentarily and pandemically pausing
in Non-0 reverse-time
double-boundaries of sacred mythos
and secular logos
paradoxing double-negatives
equal appositional co-arising positives

Both True and Elegant
as +Positive PolyNomial Open Whole Systems
equal= -/- PolyMathic DiPolar Balancing Resolution
as +1 = -(-0-squared) CoBinary NonZero Resilient Win/Win Equity

When LeftBrain exponentially triumphant
when all bilateral hands are dealt
in positive fractal squares

In Holonic PresenceSpace
delightfully empowering
One universally panentheistic
circling
recycling
spiraling
inspiring
inspirating living planetary flow

Of eternally sacred,
and ergodically regenerative
timeless moment positive energy
reclaims not-not wu-wei
flow to grow
healthier together
than degeneratively apart
trying to remember
if this is laxative night.

More resilient,
don’t you think
empowering
and often feel
enlightened?

So, we co-invested
a People of the Pequot LandTrust
nonprofit association
for historical preservation,
including mindful practices
of Indigenous Ego/EcoSystemic
Resilient Wisdom

Unconditionally regarding,
re-communing free of StraightWhitePatriarchalCapitalist trauma,
cooperatively re-investing
for WuWei Resilient Earth-empowering outcomes
secular/sacred cultural balance,
Left/Right partisan creolization
for healthcare optimization,
+1/-(-0) ecopolitical equity

YangHealth equals Yintegral NonZero Systemic Wealth
for regenerative
usually cooperative
fair-weather days
engaging in multigenerational health governance
through wu-wei Pequot Rivered
Yang/Yintegrity
seeking up/down river
BiCameral PolyNomial Balance.

We took our Resilience Project Theory
to the Clay Math Club
supported by systemic panentheistic theology
of wise crone
Golden win/win Resilience Rule
applied organically
for ego/eco-logia health care
wealth received designs
in nonzero-sum metric balance

Where six of One,
for reasons slightly beyond
LeftBrain reductive incomprehension,
feels, rather LeftBrain precisely,
yet also RightBrain systemically,
like half a dozen of Non-0
stands in for Other times
and double-binding
mythic fractal octaves
in duo-decimal months
light/dark appositionally co-arising

Like breathing in lightenment
to breathe out dark intensely felt
and unconditionally regarded
ego/ecologically balancing

BiPartisan love of health
is not in competition
with compassion
for restoring EarthJust
global peace

At least win/win intentionally,
As our wise old transeregeneereators,
grey and white haired gardeners
reflect sun’s light
while digging yet deeper
more Resilient Organic Projects

Projecting goals in soil
and soulful LandTrusts
for historic Beauty
preservation of Rivers
and healthy EarthTribe’s Green/Blue inspiraling
panentheistic living
breathing in and out Planet

Earth
Where our LandTrust indigenous designs
take us back
where S/He started

Our 0-Zone
most valuable resilience assets
are a healthy Pequot River
and our wealthy nutritional
health care giving
and receiving
breathing in and re-seeding out
soil

And sacred ecofeminist
panentheistic Non-0
Open Whole Systemic
wu-wei Taoistic,
indigenously wise
deep listening
trauma anthroprivileged LeftBrain informed
souls for ego/eco-balanced
therapy

Isn’t trauma
as +1 Whole Holonic HealthSystem
is not -0 Closed Claustrophobic
chaotic entropic
degenerative
viciously deteriorating
genocide
matricide
suicide
ecocide

Lose/Lose global climate trauma
is not Win/Win universal
cooperative restorative justice
theory
informing nonviolent communication
intention
and health/wealth optimizing care
personal
and interpersonal experience.

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Transition Town Time

It was E. B. White
who famously lamented

Waking each morning
feeling prevented
from improving
his worldview experience

Or waking each morning
feeling joy
for improvements made
during views of Earth
sacred smack in Her
other wise dead head
inexperience

Or something
probably not so involved
but with the same
missing the potential
for

Waking each morning
committed to enjoy improving
my co-invested worldview
sacred health-humored
wealth of experience.

But not in a preachy
judgment way,
more of a cosmic beauty
sacred green holonic
kinda open wholeEarth systemic
sort of win/win play

More trauma-informed
by advocates
for green cooperative
deep learning non-violent communication
ecofeminist EarthTribe Day
and Transition Town Time
for restoring resilient EarthJustice.

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For, and Against, Every Season

For every relationship
we can rediscover
a season
of increase
and tipping point
toward decrease.

For every correlation,
positively resonant
and negatively dissonant,
a regenerative
becoming degenerative season
for building up and out
and tearing down and in
compassion
tipping toward
dispassion
revulsion
decay

Like passionate summer powers
Falling toward
diminished winter light
dipolar co-arising
hope for continuous
contiguous fresh spring
cooperating green,
morning blue
yet warmer
cumulating skies
repredicting summer’s
fertile
climax
passions

Re-enlisted
in four fractal
reasoned seasons
for redeveloping Earth justice
and restoring Tribal peace.

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