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Orthodox Experiences

I was bruised by dogmatically non-evangelical
Christ monotheistic Jehovah judgmental bad faith
of divine powers
equally entitled
to generously create love
and selfishly act out of jealousy
divine punishment for unfaithful sins
of worship omission
and secularizing commission

Prescribed by the inspired
and kleptocratically negotiated
Greek
and Latin
and English transubstantiations
of AnthroSupremacist visions
speaking
and singing
and dancing
in white male dominant translations

Royal capital is holy
next to divine monopolistic inspiration
of presumably omniscient sacred values
captured by scribes
and conserved by councils
of presumably straight white orthodox
literate males
representing ecclesial royalty

Featuring Jewish Saul
turned Christ Active Revivalist Paul
writing self-governance purification letters
suggesting that ecclesial rituals
of a polytheistic sensual nature
are the opposite
of our most monotheistic spiritual
yet HolySpirit EarthMatriarchal mindful
sacred panentheistic experiences.

I am also more metaphysically resonant
as a YangNatural/YinSpiritual co-passion Taoist
believing through deep listening
to my (and possibly our)
deepest restorative regenerous justice
Yang/Yin co-operative communication intentions
throughout male/female co-investing reproductive
cause-effect linear days
and co-empathic
regeneratively resilient
lunar recircling nights

CoPassioning
yintegral humane sexuality
as our deepest,
highest
and best sacred sensory practice
positive synergy practice
health wealthing practice
till we get ourselves
Yang in and Yintegral out
depolarizing balance
resiliently Left/Right
co-empathic
resonant dialogical praxis

Bodhisattva
co-messianic
co-passionate Left/Right
internal/external communionation
practice
verbally positive thoughts
and metaphysical theories
about nonverbal healthy felt
nonviolent physical feelings.

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Working With Theories

I’m working on this Systems Theory

All existing formal religious traditions
and informal spiritual experience
of Great Sacred EcoLogical Transitions

[e.g. Blue Holocene to
Green AnthroScene]

Originally,
through our divine monotheistic
and/or polytheistic
and/or atheistic naturalistic
shared one root curiosity system
of healthy resilient enculturing nutrition:

“I’ll believe it
when I can see it,
or hear it,
or maybe safe to smell it,
but probably not safe to taste it,
feel it

Feel spiritually interested
and/or naturally disinterested
in my own personal sensual peak
and valley inside experiences,
yet also our professional education
and empowerment-driven
unconditional integrity
of warm cooperative
co-invested win/win therapeutic intent

Born of body/mind neural root systems
and delivered for
restoring wounded sacred Earth’s
indigenous Physical Resilient HealthSystems
are also MetaPhysically Resonant
Mental Win/Win Synergetic FaithSystems

ReInterReLigionReFlecting
Yang/Yin BiPartisan Balancing
Natural Economies of Resilient Health Justice
also produce Spiritually Resonant Wealth
of Peace

AnthroPrivileged,
but not competitive ZeroSum;
more Whole Open Holistic
green cooperative

FatherSun
LeftBrain dominant
verbal enlightening
do not emerge from
Closed MonoCulturally Defensive Systems

dipolar co-arising

Sacred Organically Receptive MotherEarth
RightHemisphere prominent multisensory
indigenously nature/spirit rooted
natural economic nutritional health
systems:

cooperative Win/Win
positive sacred co-relationship thrival
robustly complex networks

win/lose survivalist competitive
ecopolitical apartheid corporate transactions

lose/lose negative desecrating trauma-despair
chaotic anti-communion fading egosystems

bipolar not-not polynomially unbalanced
degenerating

Sacred MotherEarth
spiritually panentheistic
naturally synergetic
ergodic co-balancing energy
positive-1/not negative-0
AnthroPrivileged bicameral balancing health care
neuro-sensory communication systems

Remembering
matriarchal ancient-lined
ringed
circling
spiraling birthing
baptismal waters
within universal
unconditional
unitarian co-empowering
Original Win/Win EarthMother
peak emergent health is wealth
warm and wet womb
formed and flowing
integral spacetime rebalancing
1-Yang/0-Yintegral co-balancing
Whole Open HealthSystems
incubating mutual warm regard

For bilateral sacred enlightened peaks
umbilically reconnecting
co-empowering valleys

Panentheistically still lurking
in all current quietly mindful
through past nutritional faith-based traditions,
this quiet cooperatively co-invested hope
against all win/lose treasons
of win/win healthy resilient
love reasons

PolyCultural positive perception
was originally rooted in
natural food and elimination
and reproductive
ecological resilient co-operating systems,
organisms,
biospheres surrounding ego-core identity systems,
plants and living planets.

Sure,
in this more modern monotheistic branch
of ancient faith traditions
on our Tree of Sacred Indigenous Knowledge,
predative privileged light
and evangelical right
to identify
quantify
define and refine
percentage of God’s sacred
humane individuation

As compared against
a monoculturing GoldRuled Standard
StraightWhiteMale supremacist
LeftBrain nouned
monotheistic renouned right to control
exclusive sacred narratives
of divine light’s full manly power
to control all warm nutritioning
water co-gravitating ReSources

Lurking quietly
in poetry and psalms
and parables
of matriarchal sacred history

Rooted in nature-based
oral traditions,
psalmody
indigenous nondualistic wisdom literature

Not quite so over-invested
in militarized religious war events
witnessed
and victimizing
in potential win/win ways often ignored
by global ecological history

To write down mythology
and passion narratives
and bodhisattva cooperative
green co-invested
restorative justice healing ceremonies,
passion story telling

Vulnerably personal
and yet transparently professional
ego/ecosystemic open
natural mindbody healthcare
resilient history
iconic, sometimes ironically,
of spiritual eco-panentheistic
indigenous wisdom
Gaian wealthcare synergetic
ancient EarthGoddess integrity
of neuro-organic resonant mystery

Still playing with Her win/win
faith-based resilient
EarthJustice theory

Trauma-informed remains
for explaining to a win/win undamaged child
wondering, in face of emergent ecocide,
why would sacred MotherEarth
think it was a good highest and best use
of valuable organic real estate
to over invest in AnthroPrivilege?

So, I’m playing with this win/win
restoring healthy
wealth co-optimizing
empowering and enlightening
Yang/Yin bilateral ego/eco-resiliently felt
brilliant win/win re-connecting
neurosystemic ancient thrival
organic systems history
of AnthroPrivileged
positive co-relational
lurking sacred mystery theory.

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Earth Hugging

What could I do?

What to do
when your biological,
and even formerly sober ecological,
relationships suddenly veer insanely romantic?

Or worse,
mistrustful
and yet
not always distrustful,
or not,
maybe deeper sadness
and occasional manic gladness
emerging inclusively wider questions
of approach and/or avoid

Both romantic
and yet soberly pedantic
sometimes before,
to plan, for after
feeling up
and/or sore
predicts anxiously down,
as genocide
predicts ecocide,
as biological attraction
follows ecological co-invested transaction
secular lust
must be felt sacred just
to know need for win/win romance
from greed for a winner take all
anthroprivileged chance
to flex power
without sharing light,
capital wealth
without nutritional health,
disvalues of Yang infestment
without Yintegral co-investment values
predation
without co-operative elation

My rabid rabbit hole
suddenly re-opening inter-religiously
grasping indigenously divine romantic
mystery
or sacred nomadic history
not told
or remembered

When mother trees
and father limbs
felt sexy
and bark,
like skin,
felt consensual,
ecologically curious
and biologically courageous

Mystically nondualistic
Yanged up healthy
and yet also,
more kinda ecofeminist
Yintegral safe sex
yet curiously pantheistic MotherEarth
[is, and is not my sacred EarthMother]
outrageously romantic wombing

What to do when
win/win romantic co-investments
don’t go green cooperative ecstatic
resiliently resonating peak experience?

Instead, may feel not just egotistic
but also HumanPredative
pedantic privilege
more than ecologically resilient
and/or romantically brilliant,
depending, I suppose,
on which side of the secular courage
v sacred curiosity
I may feel,
and need,
and want this day

Worshipping manly mountains
and crouching in warm breezed grassy valleys
multiculturally enlightening
and polyculturally empowering

New ego/eco-logical systemic questions
about what to do
when One dominating monotheistic
StraightWhiteMale
dogmatically scripted
incorporated
religion in Power

And yet
disproportionately GrandMother funded
and nurtured
and fed
while marginalized,
still feeling disenfranchised
and stuck

On what to do
when your biological
and even formerly ecological
sacred relationships
suddenly veer insanely win/win romantic

I suppose it has something to do with
avoiding your personal slam-bam purposes
to feed and breed
our EarthRevival slow-grown
inspiraling cooperative
deep sacred meaning
is also highest and best mindbody use,
not abuse

Tipping WuWei toward
P = N(NP)
equitable chance
of ego/eco-systemic
win/win resilient
bio/eco-logical resonant
brilliance,
as LeftBrain Either/Or
Light v Dark
is to RightBrain Both/And
+1/-(-0)= PolyMathic EcoPolitical Equity

Expressed in
polyvagal neuro-systemic communication
polypathic eco-systemic not not mental health systemic
natural/spiritual
thought/felt trauma prevention
internal/external resonant affection
resiliently romantic
good health humored
co-inspiring balance issues

Which keep obsessively
and compulsively,
defensively
and liberally
avoiding
and approaching
fleeing courage
and fighting/freezing curiosity
looping back
to what should I do
when my biological health
fights my former ecological wealth
of co-empathic communication systems,
suddenly and insanely veering
pan-sensory win/win romantic?

Seems a whole lot more
than merely not so win/lose traumatic.

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Learning From Loss

The hardest losses
are those too late to repair
what has been win/win time lost
to despair

Just as love
cannot co-arise
where fear grows
fully uprisen
a prison
predicting anger’s nearby
impetuously apprised
surprise.

So too,
Freedom cannot thrive
where addiction has hard helped
us feel we are not softly worthy
to survive

“Loser” labelled struggles
with addiction
cannot feel free of affliction
nor can giving in
to addiction’s short-term affections,
powers to feel escape
from personal
and communal,
economic
and political,
monocultural
and monotheistic
OverPowers

Social judgment,
blame
and shame,
co-detachment
non-communication
developing hard
stiffly cold silent screaming
excommunication

Depressing loneliness
isolation
self-ostracization issues
win/lose closeted
fear-based shame defenses
against Old School GoldenRule
loss of co-invested love
offenses.

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Therapeutic Synergy

Could chronic stress,
like sleep deprivation,
noise and light and air pollution
also derive
by avoiding barely still alive
high-risk trauma messes?

Sometimes sadly beginning
prior to economic and political puberty

Including multi-generational suppression
misogynistic sex tensions
and monotheistic depression
and homophobic repression,
hateful Othering paranoid impressions,
chronic monocultural climate despair,
uncivil disinvested oppressions

Endarkened
by a popular FirstWorld
anthro-privileged
secularizing, dividing, dissociating
evolutionary theory
of mutual assured predation
damnation
degenerating ecosystemic deflation,
ecocidal extinction
of once sacred synergetic EarthLove
elation

Or at least
co-empowering messianic missions
for restoring EarthJustice
mental ego-health is physical eco-wealth
co-relations.

So, go on
all RightWing
WrongHeaded;
service yourself!

But
I doubt you will find
your God’s RightHand solipsism
resiliently satisfying
much less sacredly edifying.

Uncovering ecofeminists
and recovering peace mediators
are done being your queer punishing bag!
Your indigenous justice
community resonance hag!

Did I hear that out loud?

Oh, any polypathic way,
Does chronic lifetime-anxiety disorder,
win/lose competitive stress,
contribute to multi-generational high-risk trauma histories?

Sometimes beginning long before adult maturing transition
from Either/Or fundamentalist childlike conditions
not Both/And exploring inside/outside
neuro-sensory double-boundaries
in-between healthy, mature win/win resonance
and lose/lose despairing dissonance,
positively and negatively
therapeutically and traumatically
correlated

In older adults
sometimes producing increased market risks
and opportunities of dementia,
with unfortunate paranoid demise

Rather than fortunate co-invested
peaceful
pleasured
mindbody post-traumatic surprise
of warm unconditional outcomes
in win/win Paradise.

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Porky Problems

A porky problem
worth resolving

Is our scientifically hoggish evolutionary
survivalist assumption
that all Creatures that Matter
would highest and best
usefully support AnthroPrivileged
rabidly expanding WealthCare
EcoPolitical Systems

Monopolizing EarthMother’s breastmilk
and extracting fertile fuel
from her commercialized
and marginalized,
raped
and enslaved tits.

Pigs in a mud-warmed pond
experience a health care system
without monotheistic meaning
and not intending
or pretending
any monopoly rights to embodied pleasure,
much less spiritualized Paradise

As deeply as we can communicate
only AnthroGods and their Goddess Concubines
believe in our immortal EarthRights
to entitled lives that exclusively matter
for EarthMother’s healthiest wealth
resilient solidarity
and resonant synergy.

Swine, by compassionate comparison,
gladly show us
more resilient thrival instincts
than avoiding the Killing Butcher
by feeding and pushing our piglets
toward a capital-fueled Trauma Machine

As any pig would know,
survival of the fattest
is not necessarily as enlightened
or empowering
as we might
whole herd EarthTribe
together sacred grow

In cooperative mindfulness,
EarthTribal integrity,
solid
resilient synergy,
with the copassionate mindfulness
of a mystified
post-partum sow.

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Silent Conspiracy

My car-ride silence
is not judging you;
maybe me,
but certainly
and more generously
unconditionally not angry
or shaming
or blaming
you for unpardonable sins
against sainted me.

With you in a powerless passenger seat
and me in a self-punishing driver’s
need to alone defeat
our unshared lonely demons
darkly frightened and angry
terrified trauma
repeat
repeat
repeat

Frozen in this mystical dark
threatening night
mile after agonizing
coldly silent mile.

Self judgment
for addictions to bright pleasure
to glaring peace
to sacred wombs
remembering comfort and joy;
and warmly quiet compassion
listening, hopefully,
for what you can not say
gratefully yet today

Until you are ready
to speak your overflowing feelings,
positive
and negative,
manic
and depressive,
conflicted in-between
comically up
and tragically down,
cooperatively spiritual
and competitively natural,
warm mind wants
and searing body needs

Your trauma narrative
and our therapeutic hopes
and win/win dreams
for terrifying partnered glory.

My silence
is not cold,
not condemning,
but warmly curious

To hear,
and thereby hope to help heal
less silent
more shared sided by side
struggles

Together co-arising
mostly compassionate wars
against past and present unhealthy addictions
passions

Empowerments
and disempowerments,
unconditionally warm
and sacred enlightenments
and calculating cold silent
and severing secular endarkenments,
retributive competitions
and restorative cooperations

Playing quiet conspiracy games
of who can hold his voice longest
and most sadly,
and how we warmly hold
our compassion choice
more gladly

For healthier peace
and wealthier best
Tragic Comedy Drama
in a daily soap opera
series

Of critical
trauma risks
and therapeutic opportunities
throughout this long bad day

Driving not only
lonely in a cold conspiracy
of silence;
more of a warm compassion context
for restoring
and restorying
nonverbal heart communion

Reweaving what you once said
or thought
or hoped
or feared
that time heals all wounds

Except incapacity to remember
how you got them
and how much they cost
us.

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Pequot River Land Trust

Once,
or twice,
maybe thrice,
surely not
not fractal

A clan of crazy ecofeminist
conspired with an 88 unit residential castle
in a historically converted
colonial-red brick bad building

With a sometimes soggy south wall school,
but not a pool

With a toxic Brownfield
to the South
disempowered
and a healthy playfield
to the North
enlightened

Overlooking Connecticut’s Pequot River,
We plotted
and mystically strategized
in sibilant circles
of reinvention

Without pretention
And also, sometimes,
without hearing much retention
of what silent Others
might, more paternalistically
have disinterestedly said
about corporate kleptocracy
of our home planet Earth

Distracted by paternalistic
colonizing over-shoot
into capital hoarding
closed and toxic dgenerating
anthrosupremacist extraction systems
of economic and politically chauvenistic
apartheid sponsored disintegrating health care
giving is also cooperative receiving
win/win resiliently therapeutic systems.

Our panentheistic worship patterns
are nuanced sacred eco-logia
subtle
avoiding dogmatically fundamental
unwoke and unwelcome absence
of over-investing
in disempowering communal Yinside DoorMats,

Externally oppressed
by prickly but ineffective predators
wiping their StraightWhite Privilege
to bow to Mammon’s narcassistic
monotheistic
bedeviling superpowers

For, eventually,
enlightening LeftBrain verbalized prejudices
against sacred RightBrrain muted
yet co-empathic trust for feelings

Of both blue sky
and green forests
co-investing with Mother’s re-membered
communal ecofeminist transporters
and nonviolently communicating
great and small transitioning
transubstantiations

Left and Right bilateral
human health balanced brilliance
relies on MotherEarth’s sacred wealth
ecoministerial resilience
of indigenously wise
ecotherapists
sharing and caring
for our tilling tools

EcoLogians
strategizing in Earth patterns
breathing in resilient eco-systems
of light
to breathe out ego-recentering networks
of win/win co-invested power

CoMediation thriving yet again
until EarthMother’s last breath rasp
echoes Her first
majestically fluid EarthTribal gasp

Win/Win Whole Open Systemic
left-ego/right-eco
in/out-side bipartisan health values

Collectively lost
momentarily and pandemically pausing
in Non-0 reverse-time
double-boundaries of sacred mythos
and secular logos
paradoxing double-negatives
equal appositional co-arising positives

Both True and Elegant
as +Positive PolyNomial Open Whole Systems
equal= -/- PolyMathic DiPolar Balancing Resolution
as +1 = -(-0-squared) CoBinary NonZero Resilient Win/Win Equity

When LeftBrain exponentially triumphant
when all bilateral hands are dealt
in positive fractal squares

In Holonic PresenceSpace
delightfully empowering
One universally panentheistic
circling
recycling
spiraling
inspiring
inspirating living planetary flow

Of eternally sacred,
and ergodically regenerative
timeless moment positive energy
reclaims not-not wu-wei
flow to grow
healthier together
than degeneratively apart
trying to remember
if this is laxative night.

More resilient,
don’t you think
empowering
and often feel
enlightened?

So, we co-invested
a People of the Pequot LandTrust
nonprofit association
for historical preservation,
including mindful practices
of Indigenous Ego/EcoSystemic
Resilient Wisdom

Unconditionally regarding,
re-communing free of StraightWhitePatriarchalCapitalist trauma,
cooperatively re-investing
for WuWei Resilient Earth-empowering outcomes
secular/sacred cultural balance,
Left/Right partisan creolization
for healthcare optimization,
+1/-(-0) ecopolitical equity

YangHealth equals Yintegral NonZero Systemic Wealth
for regenerative
usually cooperative
fair-weather days
engaging in multigenerational health governance
through wu-wei Pequot Rivered
Yang/Yintegrity
seeking up/down river
BiCameral PolyNomial Balance.

We took our Resilience Project Theory
to the Clay Math Club
supported by systemic panentheistic theology
of wise crone
Golden win/win Resilience Rule
applied organically
for ego/eco-logia health care
wealth received designs
in nonzero-sum metric balance

Where six of One,
for reasons slightly beyond
LeftBrain reductive incomprehension,
feels, rather LeftBrain precisely,
yet also RightBrain systemically,
like half a dozen of Non-0
stands in for Other times
and double-binding
mythic fractal octaves
in duo-decimal months
light/dark appositionally co-arising

Like breathing in lightenment
to breathe out dark intensely felt
and unconditionally regarded
ego/ecologically balancing

BiPartisan love of health
is not in competition
with compassion
for restoring EarthJust
global peace

At least win/win intentionally,
As our wise old transeregeneereators,
grey and white haired gardeners
reflect sun’s light
while digging yet deeper
more Resilient Organic Projects

Projecting goals in soil
and soulful LandTrusts
for historic Beauty
preservation of Rivers
and healthy EarthTribe’s Green/Blue inspiraling
panentheistic living
breathing in and out Planet

Earth
Where our LandTrust indigenous designs
take us back
where S/He started

Our 0-Zone
most valuable resilience assets
are a healthy Pequot River
and our wealthy nutritional
health care giving
and receiving
breathing in and re-seeding out
soil

And sacred ecofeminist
panentheistic Non-0
Open Whole Systemic
wu-wei Taoistic,
indigenously wise
deep listening
trauma anthroprivileged LeftBrain informed
souls for ego/eco-balanced
therapy

Isn’t trauma
as +1 Whole Holonic HealthSystem
is not -0 Closed Claustrophobic
chaotic entropic
degenerative
viciously deteriorating
genocide
matricide
suicide
ecocide

Lose/Lose global climate trauma
is not Win/Win universal
cooperative restorative justice
theory
informing nonviolent communication
intention
and health/wealth optimizing care
personal
and interpersonal experience.

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Transition Town Time

It was E. B. White
who famously lamented

Waking each morning
feeling prevented
from improving
his worldview experience

Or waking each morning
feeling joy
for improvements made
during views of Earth
sacred smack in Her
other wise dead head
inexperience

Or something
probably not so involved
but with the same
missing the potential
for

Waking each morning
committed to enjoy improving
my co-invested worldview
sacred health-humored
wealth of experience.

But not in a preachy
judgment way,
more of a cosmic beauty
sacred green holonic
kinda open wholeEarth systemic
sort of win/win play

More trauma-informed
by advocates
for green cooperative
deep learning non-violent communication
ecofeminist EarthTribe Day
and Transition Town Time
for restoring resilient EarthJustice.

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When We Grow

If we don’t know where we are going
this morning
this day
tomorrow
this week
this month
this winter
promising spring

Then we will continue to feel stuck
repressed
depressed
not impressed
with monocultural threats
and monopolistic climate traumas
of random stressful win/lose
and terrifying lose/lose
loss of agency
to choose sacred
cooperative resurrection

Degeneratively stuck
in tragically competitive
aggressive
terrifying
angry raging
bullying
matricidal
militaristic
police state
abortive
disassociated
rightwing feudally anthropocentric
unmindful and vengeful
MotherEarth’s name is mud.

If we don’t know where we are going,
then we are less likely to arrive
in Paradise
than when we do know

Boundaries
between democratic
ecofeminist health

And pathologies
autocratic
paternalistic
monotheistic
monoculturing
defending monopolistic anthro-wealth.

If you don’t know where I am going,
then we are less likely to arrive
EarthTribe panentheistic together
than when you do know

When we are healthy growing
we are more likely to feel alive
curious
anticipation
drawn outside our bodies
talk talk talking minds
our LeftBrain dominant dogmatic shelters
from nature’s polytheistic storms
and peaceful paradise
ecofeminist WholeSystems
holonic spiraling
round emergent
indigenously wise potential

Where and why we can spiritually discern
what EarthTribe wisdom
we have win/win strategically
naturally learned

Trust
and cooperatively co-invested health
are not where we are going
when we do not distrust
kleptocratic RedHanded willful wealth
ego-inside
and anthro v eco
systemically win/lose
devolution outwide

Fearing monotheistic omnipotence
above all humane elsewhere
polytheistic nondestinations
wandering far from resilient wealth
with health-industrialized
Business-As-Usual
rightwing UnChristian
NonFundamentally Indigenous

Rather than wealthiest
from within win/win journeys
in panentheistic
Holy Spirited
compassionate
unconditionally self/other
co-regarded destiny
of cooperative care
for this morning
this day
this week
these creations
this season
transitioning from Holonic Scene
toward AnthroHubris Scene

Unconditionally warm regarding
secularly given win/win
historic learning
as also
sacredly received peace
destinations

Enlightened
and empowering
bicamerally co-discerning

Regenerative
red-hearted
encultured
toward Whole Earth systemic
thoughtful destinations
invoking natural fairness

Reflecting green/blue living
spirited
peaceful
provoking feelings
to fully engage this morning
this day
this season
this year
this decade
this EarthLife shared
in destiny.

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