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Together Will We Part

Cells work is play
to resiliently thrive
only in organic systems.

Individual yolked cells
each with her own ego-governor
survive healthy together
and divide tragically apart

More like symbiotic regenerations
of surfing cantilevers
than degenerations
outside predations
storming waves
recolonizing cancers.

Transgendering
transubstantiating
transitions can be both

Too hard on ego yolks
and too soft for ecobodies
become some One boundaried else
while too soon severing
into not yet Zero

Sacrificed for tomorrow’s
unconditional regard
organically in-between
One secular EgoZone
and not yet Zero sacred
systemic EarthTribe soul

Remembering past memories
mindful of mind-cell fullness
side by side solidarity
re-imaging severed cells

Crests of history’s
great transitioning wave
from individual hot burning stars
to seas of cold
dead
dry dust

Awaiting wetter rust
for light and power
to co-arise
more resilient lust

Inside crusts
of ego loving centers
and their living eco-kin
becoming back and forth,
together and apart
again

Enlightenment
and death,
empowering cantilevers
losing out to expatriating cancers

Co-invested
ego risks of past power
and eco loss of future opportunities

Individuating
systems for regeneration
and recycling seasons
of privation

Therapy
and trauma,
health
and pathology

Unconditional regard
and conditioned
hardening cells
of disregard

For innocent Othered cells
whose work is also play
to resiliently thrive

Only in organic systems
unconditionally regarding
this enlightened
empowering day

Swings of Yang bright light
empowering Yin’s eternal sway.

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Disability’s Wisdom

Moderation in all metaphysical
and physical declarations
and implementations
of RightWing
LeftBrain dominance.

ImModeration in self
as also Other
love.

Moderation in all things,
except continuously flowing integrity

Reforming
and propelling
compassionate universal regard.

Passionately love wisdom
that diversely
and re-contextually regards
win/win positive co-arisings
and win/lose negative correlations
to bilaterally become felt
knowing integral
bicameral
polycultural
polypathic
polyvagal
polynomially pleasing praxis.

Unconditionally practice
ecological praxis

Contextually
and spatially
temporally expanding consciousness
into eco/theological contemplative
enabling arts,
spiritual nature-living
indigenous
nondualistic deductive/inductive
exhaling/inhaling wisdom

Peak sensory nonviolent performance
of co-passionately experiential theology
becoming our inside sacredly held Truth
and radically democratic inclusive Trust
and diversely unobtrusive multicultural Beauty
of everyday unconditional neuro-sensory regard

In which win/win anticipation
co-empowers
and co-enlightens
other bicameral win/win MeWe
co-empathic abilities
living exotic bodhisattva healing lives

Teaching us metaphysically
and physically re-establishing
re-framing
re-seating
re-walking
dancing and re-singing
trauma histories
of our together felt
therapeutic horizons
of deep integral meaning.

Peak metaphysical experiences of loving
mystically become body fulfilling
right-brain acts of health becoming
fully alive

Compassion
is a right-brain artistic
and left-brain analytic
integral mind/body process
nonviolent

Engaging win/win trusted horizons
of panentheistic Beauty
and trusted Truths

Reveal a synergetic
cooperatively energetic
multiculturally accessible praxis

Responding to challenges
with our joyful “Yes”
to inter-related
win/win
is better
and healthier
and wealthier
and wiser
than settling for win/lose
paralyzing life
is better than lose/lose
mortal despairing
global climate challenges.

Punishing economic
political
social injustice internally contradicts
resilient health care
like an unconditionally
cooperatively regarded “No Way!”

To lack of sacred enabling integrity
which lose/lose traumatizes
decontextualizes
marginalizes
imprisons
destroys

Compassion’s unconditionally flowing
reforming polytheistic love

Is life’s bilateral
metaphysical potential sanctity,
dignity,
enabling wise integrity
regardless of physical abilities
and left-brain dominant
verbal articulation
enabling communionation
capacities

To write about
moderation in all metaphysical
and physical declarations
and implementations
of RightWing
LeftBrain dominance.

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What is THAT about?

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
I can’t “manage” anger
any better than fear
and contagious distrust
and nearly constant anxiety
and chronic depression.

In nonviolent communication practice circles,
peace networks,
organic therapeutic systems,
“curiosity” slowly grows ascendent
as “patience” to resist negative feelings
and “impatience” with shameless Others
and not so blameless Selves
fades off into a less used lexicon.

Impatience about expressing anger,
verbally and nonverbally,
evokes LeftBrain dominant
patriarchal
capitalist
corporate management models
for hierarchically oppressive
suppressive
repressive
not really impressive
humorless control.

Curiosity about deep therapeutic win/win potential
for evolving healthcare competencies
comes from a political economy
of co-operative compassion

NOT: intimidating
and frightening scarcity
of control
sufficient to guarantee
a never-ending expansion
of ego-engorgement
through solitary
deductive
reductive
dualistic non-enlightenment
segregating the StraightWhiteMale
corporate well-capitalized WINners
from us unstraight
unwhite
unmale frightening
and yet uppity LOSErs

Apparently LeftBrain incapable
of managing our anger issues,
sometimes frightened by vulnerability
and emotional transparency
yet quietly curious about compassion
and neuro-sensory peak
RightBrain prominent
interdependent
co-empathic
co-invested peak spiritual experiences
biological
ecological
theologically transcendent

Exploding boundaries of autonomous ego-defensiveness
and, possibly, even Either/Or,
LeftBrain dominant Cause
OR RightBrain felt Effect,
StraightWhite monotheistic
Capital-theistic compunctions,
monoculturally supremacist,
macroeconomic win/lose predative,
pathologically angry and frightening
terrorized global apartisan politics.

Remarkably unfazed
by climax-trending ecocide
and degenerative patriarchal
capitalist
LeftBrain narcissistic
snarky
Us v Them genocide

Unconscious about our lack of control
to manage our viral global anger
while spiritually and naturally,
theologically and ecologically,
dying
from lack of win/win curious
green cooperative thrival.

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
we can’t “manage” anger
any better than climate fear
and contagious EarthTribal distrust
and nearly constant neuro-systemic anxiety
and chronic LeftBrain dominant
divisive depression.

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Distancing Communication

Distancing communication
seems like an oxymoron,
like dissonant communion.

My ego center speaks communication
while my organic systemic body listens
for communion

Discerning what feels confluent,
resonant with ecological
health is wealth
EarthTribal indigenous experience

AND what feels like aggressive,
possibly predative,
lose/lose DIScommunication
distressed communication
dissonant noise
dissociative distancing,
sometimes ominously silent
dormant
terminal absence
of verbal communication

AND what feels like dualistic
win/lose MIScommunication,
missed cooperative win/win opportunity
too Either my way
Or hit the highway
competitively risky,
too egocentric
too anthrosupremacist
too StraightWhiteMale privileged
too LeftBrain verbally dominant
too lacking co-passion,
too unwoke,
but feeling more like ignorance
than lose/lose malignant
despairing
pathological intent
to DIScommunicate.

My ecosystemic body feels
Trust in win/win active hope,
DIStrust for surviving lose/lose despair,
economic and ecological degeneration,
MIStrust of win/lose monoculturing monopolies
monotheistic
monochromatically anthrosupremacist

Preachers
and teachers
of pure white
bright paternalistic capitalism
as Earth’s only way
truth
life toward healthy salvation.

Trust breeds neuro-systemic integrity.
DIStrust feeds overwhelming feelings
of violently weaponed despair.
MIStrust of win/lose
either/or
LeftBrain dominant thinking
not compliant with ecologically healthy experience
is, on my best feeling days
and peace dreaming nights,
a therapeutic opportunity tool
for responding to health risk trauma.

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Straight White Privileged Silence

Listen to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans
wavering white noiselessness
of silent futile passing

Absence of passion
hope
care
happiness
or creased
and reasoned sadness.

Hear this void of madness,
lack of hunger
or parched thirst
for conversation
splendid nutrition
scandalous emission
empowering immigration
enlightened emigration
or angry fear emanation
of forced solitude migration

Into mortal loss
of sensory reception
political deception
economic perception
theistic inception
septic conception.

Smell nothing.
Taste everything
becomes dust
delustered rust
lust for transcendent
disembodied consummation
omnipresent transportation
omniscient evaporation
full latitude
for fragrance-free
plastic platitudes
feckless attitudes
disdainful blows
to further fertile emanations.

Sing where nothing
settles into rounding octave rings
to never
ever want to dance
in robust spirals
again

Against depressions
felt repressions
thought impressions
known suppressions
unheard deflation
worn through integration
transcultural conflation

Of panentheistic elegant Zeroes
absorbed by a monstrous
monopolistic silent
slick One

Listening to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans,
white emptiness
of silent
restless passing.

Glare at it.
Rake it in.
Sleep with it
if you dare
to care
without an inch
or squeezed moment
to spare.

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Setting the Bully Table

The often unnoticed first strategic step
in bullying
is to isolate.

Religious
political
economic
and/or sexual bullying
begins, already,
feeling entitled to pervasively disempower,
dissociate,
disinvest,
unenlighten,
excommunicate,
lock up,
terminate from employment,
send to the reservation,
asylum
ghetto,
wrong side
of the LeftBrain dominant
self-righteous tracks.

Deeply separate,
divide and, thereby, expose
and bully
that Other,
or those Others,
who need to learn their place,
separate and deservedly unequal,
to relearn their divinely-inspired space
of oppression
neglect
punishment

For being wrong,
too needy greedy,
too ignorant,
uneducated
simple
quiet and sneaky
queer
unbinary
effeminate
pretentious
hypocritical
weird looking, sounding, smelling,
frightening
angry
threatening…

Such alien Others
are first isolated
at least by disreputation,
then abused

First neglected
shunned
Othered
alienated
unaccepted,

Then ridiculed
used
raped
vilified

Blatantly and falsely accused
of being motivated
to dismiss
and impoverish
the monoculturing Bullies
through stealth
or by speaking their lying,
biased
self-serving Truth

Which is always ignored
until They get too uppity
again.

Bullies
and their Victims
are, thereby, deprived
of experiencing compassionate
cooperatively appreciated
and co-invested
dialogue.

Bullies
and their Victims
thereby declare and suffer wars
where everyone,
including plants and animals,
soil and water and air quality,
suffers and loses
except, in the bookkeeping department,
the military-industrial
short-term corporate profit Bullies

Who will not realize
their self-victimizing
long-term health and safety losses
until degeneratively isolated
from all prospects for a livable
sustainable
humane
sacredly compassionate
EarthTribe health and safety
future climate.

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Weapons Down Anger

Anger
is such a useful learning silence tool,
when not too short-term
ballistically reactive,
weaponized.

I have seldom noticed
when my own hot-burning issues
cold turn into
a Self and Other harsh
punishing vengeance weapon.

When left unnoticed,
unmedicated,
unmeditated
by forgiving lack of ego-supremacist
humility

By explicit co-invested intentions
of nonviolent verbal communication
informed by nonverbal win/win felt intuition,
bipartisan green consensus

For paying forward residual profits
of bicamerally balanced
co-passionately held
co-investments

Now silently neglected
in a more long-term LeftBrain dominating
colonizing monoculture
of win/lose shame and blame
Other
Alien
Enemy

Xenophobic supremacist
lingering long before and after
royalist reactionary
revenge,

Playing with BusinessAsUsual
Zero/Sum Closed degenerating
risky systemic compromises

Falsely agreeing
to disagree
about who profits more
from Mutually Assured Destruction
yet feeling everybody loses
in an overheated war,
no one left
to silently
reflectively keep score

Detente
camouflaging unresolved potential
for healthy and safe
win/win cooperative
green economic and political
integrally compassionate
resolution.

Perhaps this angry turn
to burning out red hot revenge,
retribution,
win/lose capital monopolistic,
vengeful and jealous,
self-rightenously extractive
and divinely-inspired
overbearing
patriarchal straight white monotheistic

Omniscient ego-saving face
of nation-states
reporting dull Loser
unhealthy climate
fading statistics
sometimes more masochistic
depressed
about deserving
emotional and erotic neglect
and physical
dispiriting abuse
from EcoFeminist Earth

CoArising
in other less than sanely sacred spaces,
sadistic
capitalistic gotcha games

Short-circuited
most win/win effectively
by bodhisattva-grade Win/Win
co-invested commitment

LeftBrain
out loud disagreeing
against RightBrain felt
Othered
depressed
repressed
suppressed
disagreement feelings

Cognitive/Affective co-punishing dissonance
stress
chronic underlying trauma
of silence
rewarmed toward therapeutic potential
co-arising cooperative reflection

While quietly accepting
and silently celebrating
renewing awareness
of inhumane win/lose Business As Usual
rediscovered as less powerful and health enlightened
than win/win cooperative co-investment
in democratic co-governance sharing
caring about all Lose/Lose traumas,
big and small,
recent
and long ago

Renewing spacious multiculturing revivals
recommiting to humane/divine
Win/Win restorative justice,
therapy of active musing
polycultural
polyphonic
polypathic joy
of Open Organic Systems

EarthTribe’s regenerative life
inclusive love
rerooting sacred hope

That agreeing
what is LeftHemisphere health care
giving communion
and receiving resilient resonance
is also RightHemisphere
intersectional safety
secure unitarian interdependence,
serene universal security

When
and where short-term uniting
ego/eco dancing dopamine
greets long-term universally co-passionate
singing serotonin

As night
dawns dance revolving into each new
ego/eco-systemic
bicameral play day

Remembering silent righteousness
trailing stone cold anger,
silent sails
back through pre-history
of polyvagal neuro-systems

Long
long before international anger
became such a useful learning silent tool
when not RightWing fired up

Leading to ballistics
as if short-term war
might finally lead
to peaceful climate health

As nonviolent co-empathic silence
leads toward
active cultures
musing forth health compassion.

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Punishing Silence

Do we choose silence
not only as a tool
for self-protection
when speaking
our latest chapter stories
feels unsafe?

But also stern silence
may become a weapon
to ward off apathetic enemies
of our straight
hopelessly white
monotheistic
monopolistic
patriarchal capitalist
enemies

Who would not seem to care
to love us
more than we ourselves
can love them
as part of us
right now
left multiculturally
and ecofeminist
silenced here.

As you go
and liberally grow silent,
I may quietly
then traumatically
hear,
as isolating time
sticks ominously by,

“I am not your constant un-masked friend,”
and, thereby,
an ominous self-fulfilling prophecy
emergently erupts
in punishing response,

“I cannot remain
your therapeutic good-times,
vaccinated against silent unease,
healthy
co-empathic musing friend,”

To trust when skies grow silently dark
and night descends
beyond despair
to safely share
stressed Trauma

Itself first felt ray
of restoring justice promise
despite this loss of salvific
passioned hope.

Prosperity losses steal
from future compassion
already while first silenced weapons
dream denying
relentless truths of suffering
lack of healthy opportunity
to speak our fears
out loud
with those who trust
our trembling tears.

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Small Powers Everywhere

This little light of mine
I’m gonna let it shine

Wide and longing
for committed dialogue
not surrounded
by elitist debate,

Win/lose games,
Zero-sum asinine assumptions
requiring ego-infested shadows

Resisting win/win opportunities
of healthy
democratic dialogue

Between constituencies,
residents sufficiently humble
to become students together
and unschooled
unprofessional parents
and not totally enlightened teachers
and investigative staff
and neighborhood enquiry co-investors
in this democratic
nonpartisan
Thermos On Thames Experiment.

Where the School for Daily Integrity
hosts community resources
co-engaging win/win resolutions
producing cooperative educational opportunities
to practice
practice
compassionate praxis
nonviolent communication
to restore EarthJustice,

Where co-investors co-invite
contributions around ecofeminist friendly circles
just close enough for everyone
to hear all respected neighbors
who will not be Othered

Because we are learning,
through this pandemic of anxiety,
to anticipate more than climate floods
and fears,

Both risks
and opportunities,
dissonance
and resonance,
chaotic cacophony
and complex symphony
entrusting our capacity
for resilient health and safety
co-governance.

Not another negative
Business As Sadly Usual
competitive ZeroSum game
of wounded ego-survival
until some future small light day
still dimly hoping for big bright
ecosystemic
polycultural
multicultural win/win robust community

Co-mediation
co-operation
co-invested co-dominions
engaging spring EarthDay celebrations

Of locals feeling active hope
and mutually earned trust
predicting environmental ideas
for healing Earth’s injustices
blighting compassionate
nonviolent communication,
which would be more transparent,
risking tender lights
for growing better humored
kindness

Where silence of executives
administrators
managers
means they are deeply listening
for how we can empower each other
through heartfelt consent

And cold dark silence melts,
no longer resisting Truth
to continue postures
of professional
authoritarian
legalistic
quarterly profit-preserving business
without also recognizing long-term threats
of flooding rivers
and subzero icy windstorms.

Straight white patriarchal privileged
incorporated silence means resistance
to sharing inclusive powers
with autonomously dimming lights

Rather than unveiling
wide and bright kindness moving
away from monocultural
either/or debate,
repressing fears about surviving future floods
fears
and famine

Rather than inclusively hoping
to thrive
with good humored faith
in INTEGRAL MARKERS
of democratic health
calling for this circle
to embrace trust-rebuilding
co-empathic engagement

Feeding
and watering each individual’s strengths
and cooperatively held assets
rather than punishing our weaknesses
of fear and anger,
passive mistrust
and active distrust

Further afflicting executive professional disadvantage,
dissociations
dividing shadows
weapons for continuing
White Patriarchal privileged
and disempowered
and unenlightened
talking Heads of lined up Authority

Speaking down,
darkly withholding honest
well-lit encircling dialogue
about our shared health
interactive safety
compassionate wealth
anticipations through actively
engaging transparent dialogue

While sitting around our annual fire circle
celebrating songs and dances
of green ecofeminist healthy lights
inviting yet another safe spring thaw

Inspiring this engaging light of ours
to let our best divine co-dominion
co-investments shine.

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Climate Change Ain’t Progress

In Shaker Heights, Ohio,
founding fathers co-invested in:

Change doesn’t happen
without planning

This, despite
unstraight
unwhite
unmale volatile experiences
feeling sometimes victimized
and sometimes blessed
by unexpected weather transitions,
despite feeling like vulnerable chameleons,
despite feeble farming
in narrowing spaces
between floods and famine,
despite more often feeling:

Plans were made to be changed,
a euphemism for:

Your plans are disempowered
to become downsized,
disinvited,
excised.

Planning change
feels as privileged as LeftBrain dominance
which need not pause to listen
and remember
more fear-inducing personal experiences

Violent change predicting health
and wealth losses,
wild absence of planned control
like HIV
and COVID-19,
global pandemics
and climate change
erasing EarthTribe’s
presumed polyculturally healthy
future symbiotic ego/eco-systems.

If sinister change,
including global pandemics,
feel suspiciously planned to you
then please rediscover
your LeftBrain anxious conspiracy theories
as a weakness

Rooted in Straight-White-Male
incorporated executive academic privilege
to have disproportionate learning resources
to research,
and plan more exclusive progress
in your family
and work
and economic
and political history

More successful
than chronic disenfranchisement,
monocultural marginalization,
psychological depression,
feminist political repression,
economic suppression,
win/lose competitive corporate colonizing
oppression–
all tragic unprogressive forms,
not therapeutic changing flows,
of mundane traumatic pathology.

Change
for LeftBrain dominant speakers,
does not always sound like
Progress
to RightBrain prominent listeners.

Ambiguity about personal capacity
to empower therapeutic change
can also be heard
when I “deserve”:

to stay home
(paid or unpaid?)
when I’m sick

to give voice
(listened to or ignored?)
to my transparent truth

to be housed,
institutionalized,
hospitalized,
incorporated,
resourced,
employed by patriarchal capitalists,
healthier,
loved for who I could become,
with explicit contractual conditions
for rewarded positive
(more than punished negative)
regard.

If we have too seldom deserved
merits
more than demerits
in our own salvation/demonization
invitation/extrication experience,
then we grow quick to notice
“change” comes in positive
and negative future plans

As “progress”
can be progressive cancer
and climates of disruption
more than polyculturally inclusive choice
of love
and not fear,
of compassion
and not violence

For too many of Those People,
For global EarthTrauma
climate change,
what follows Patriarchal-Capitalist plans
for next quarter’s progress
is frightening absence
of eco-political integrity,
Business As Planned Usual
degenerating
toxic chaos.

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